CHOSEN RAINBOW (spoken word poetry)

Chosen Rainbow (spoken word poetry)


Nowadays, it's not enough that you're just beautiful and smart, you should be flirty too..that's what my friends often tell me.
The common reason why men leave and replace women is that because women are boring ..and maybe that is the same reason why those guys you chose to trust and love cheated on you?..


When I met you I wanted to try what they were saying..I was so scared but I had to try and I needed to try it to the person I know I am safe with…

At first I knew there was something different with you. When I received your message you didn't even have a photo showing your identity, something that made me not to answer the chat. But your chat was different compared to the one I always receive a message from that goes "you're beautiful" ..

I gave myself a chance to get to know you, and I wasn't wrong. I know you are a kind and decent person .. in a short time I felt at ease with you .. I felt safe with you. That's why I chose you over others


I tried to flirt with you, and I was surprised by your reaction..
When I told my friends about it, they laughed and told me that your beauty didn't work, as if I had no appeal to you or maybe you used to be a priest?
But I said maybe you're just really nice and you respect me.

From that day on, I have had an interest in you. I wanted to get to know you better, what are the things that make you happy, make you smile, what were your wounds and how you healed ..

But it has not been easy for me, because I could feel your distance, your being reserved and your coldness. I feel like you don't trust me ... I also often feel embarrassed because I feel like you have no interest in me and I feel like I'm the one chasing you ..
Days went by and I feel something strange about myself. Sometimes i miss you, I miss your chat.
I feel sad and hurt when the day goes by that you don't remember to say hello to me .. Something I'm afraid of ..

I used to joke that I want to be with you,
Suddenly I want it to happen for real because I want be with you and get to know you.


I tried to cover up how I feel, and told myself that maybe I just misunderstood how I feel.
So I chose to stay away from you, to assess my true feelings about you.
Part of my heart and mind says, “you know what the answer to your question is? you're just in denial because you're a coward. You don't want to face what you are feeling because you are afraid of getting hurt and being rejected ..”

Yes that's right, I may know the answer to how I feel but I'm afraid to admit the truth because I don't want to be hurt ...


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Because I know that even if I choose you, I know that you will not choose me ..