deranged moments --- (spoken word poetry + music - no singing or rapping)

deranged moments
http://azdi404.blogspot.com/

in these deranged moments
it's not time to be friends,

we need to talk about it
& silence is not the way

I Crave your mind that browsed cataloged pages of my life
witnessing me living & dying many tales
I can afford to suffer with you...

Let me seize the moment to begin
it's time you come of age.
So come undone

I knew there was something wrong,
should've told me you wanted someone to blame
but you left me far behind
now I have to watch you suffer alone.

I felt the mutiny in my veins
so receive me before I rupture these plans 
like the birth of ink on paper
erupting the pen's tip to breathe

and call me before you exhale,
when no one's around at your super hour
encrypt the distance between us
lay down resistance for me

I wish you had never kept me waiting
by the backyard bay
with inert gangster lullabies,
pondering back as I remembered 
the graveyard shift and all its nuances
stagnant questions & dull answers, 
the definition of free speech
flexible words as you, 
taxing with a heavy hand, 
the high of the low-end

Breathe into broken one-liners
a glimpse about the blues of dark tales
about not getting enough of what you want,
as for me

I have come to love the spiral hollow freedom you offer in your deranged moments.

I have come to love the spiral hollow freedom you offer in your deranged moments
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Sep 12, 2022
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lyrics & vocals: azdi404
music credit: Haram by Exilian