Ria Bronte | Ode To Compassionate People | Spoken Word Song

An ode to compassionate people

I don’t feel self pitying when I’m with you
I don’t feel hyper identified with,
tainted by, tied to tragedy
Instead I feel believed in and understood

And I reject that engrained superstitious belief
That chaos and self destruction
Is an incurable disease
stuck to my family, stuck to me

When I’m with you I don’t feel
Weakened by my experiences
I'm no longer feel ashamed, angry, afraid
Taking on the weight and blame for the fate of my whole family
Instead I slowly start to feel a detached acceptance and sympathy

Sometimes I resent that I have to constantly
unlearn hideous childhood conditioning
that I have to constantly untwist from one million deluding strings
all the while seeing my limits, taught to quickly flick the switch of guilt and helplessness

But when I’m with you, when I’m with my friends
I see healing is always far simpler than I think,
And far more self compassionate than this
How returning to self and learning strength
is actually so beautiful, not a burden

And I remember all those times
it’s actually worked
Untying every internal knot
with gentle, careful words
All that work I’ve put in,
it’s actually been worth it all

See I don’t feel like a victim
of anything when I’m with you
Or at fault, because I didn’t even cause
all the terror that has ensued

I don’t anymore feel like a criminal,
Who’s committed one million
mysterious treasons

Fuck, I just feel like a human being